God's blessings come

 For over the past year I had been praying that Alex and his family could also heal. That I wouldn't lose such great people in my life. That I might understand why it was in God's will that I had to experience another divorce. I asked for the courage to start following my dreams. To see myself the way God sees me. 

It took a year and more tears than I care to admit. It has been the hardest two years of my life. Yet I am starting to see miracles that I never imagined would come into my life. Alex and his are healing and coming to terms with such a hard trail that came into all of our lives. I have gained Alex back in my life as such a great friend who has helped me believe in my dreams. He's agreed to help me with a few things that I am working on. I am still trying to understand why there can be two great people who are not meant to be together. I have had the courage and strength to start working on things I have thought about doing since my senior year of high school. I am starting to see this amazing person who has always been there just buried under self doubt and hatred for the world around me. 

I am now praying for certain things that I know will come into my life in the right time for me. Pray does change the situations in our lives. It doesn't happen over night and at times might feel like a huge trail in our lives but I promise God's blessings and answers will come in the right time for us. So if you are in the middle of a trail don't give up and get on your knees to pray to God. He is there and he loves each of you in ways that we can't fully understand while on this earth. All things are really for our good especially the hard things in our lives. It's more than ok to feel what you feel because just because they are for our good doesn't mean that they don't hurt and make us question things about ourselves and the world around us. Don't give up hope that the blessings you seek will one day come to you.