Expect miracles

 If you have not i would highly recommend reading the conference talk from our dear prophet in April 2022 the power of spiritual momentum. In the talk our prophet told us to start to pray and know that miracles would happen.  I have never had a talk touch me the way this talk did. I had just been told that I would never have children and I did what our prophet told us to do and within a year I found out that I was expecting. I might have miscarriaged but I still conceived. Then I experienced the miracles of breathing better thanks to a surgery.  Then I found out that I had cancer but thankfully it was only stage one and they were able to remove the tumors and I became cancer free. I found out that the tumors had been what had caused my miscarriages and that one day I would be able to go full term.  I have found that miracles many times don't come in the way we expect but come they do. This talk changed everything for me and I hope that it will do you just as much.  Change our attitudes about miracles and know they will come in the lords time table.  

Find the beauty within

 We all have beauty within if only we look deep enough.  We matter what we may or may not have done in life. No matter how we feel about ourselves.  No matter how many times we fail or fall down we are all children of God and as such we all are beautiful to a perfect God or why do we judge ourselves as not being beautiful if we live a christ like life. 

Attitudes are everything

 I have come to realize that the only thing we have control of is our attitude.  Are we going to stay positive in the midst of great trail or are we only going to see the negative.  No matter what we choose the trails are still there. By choosing to stay positive we will be able to get through the trails and hard times so much easier.  Its also ok to fall for a minute and to even need help to stay positive.  That's why we have friends and family to help us in those moments when we can't do it on our own. How long are we willing to stay negative? 

Put god first

 I am so sorry its been three days since my last blog. I have been in utah on vacation.  

I have come to realize that God really does have a hand in our lives.  Many times when bad things happen to us on our journey it only brings us to the place God wants us to be.  So don't worry about living a perfect life just do your best to put God first in your life because the rest will follow. 

Love yourselves

 Never forget just how far you have come.  The lord wants his children to love themselves.  By doing so it frees you to love others even more than you do now.  The two great commandments are to love God and to love others but we can't keep either until we learn how to love ourselves.  Loving ourselves will always be the hardest thing to do so if you can do that Loving God and others become easy. 

Two choices what will your's be?

 No matter what happens we have two choices to allow them to make something positive with trails or to allow them to get to us.  It's ok for hard times to get to us for a time but do we pick ourselves up and dust off ourselves. To rise to the occasion and become somebody who has risen above the world to make something special with our lives.  I am so thankful for a loving father in heaven who gave me the opportunity to rise above this marriage and divorce to help others do the same.  To see the times that others around me have risen to the occasion and kept going even when they are in pain.  

Lessons from divorce

 Even though this divorce has dragged on and been hard I'm grateful for the lessons I have been learning.  First communication is key to any relationship to be healthy. Without communication small problems between two people become impossible to overcome, where as if there had been communication things would have been solved.  Second lesson i have learned is God carries us through things that seem impossible.  Third we are never alone even when we may feel like we are.  Forth miracles happen everyday if we only open our eyes to them.  Many times miracles don't come in the way we expect them to or in the time but come they do. Fiveth in the worst of times is when you learn what you are capable of doing.  Sixth when you feel like you are not ok just realize all it means is the story isn't done with and that better days are coming if you only hold on to God.  Seventh how important the lesson my parents taught us kids growing up which is if you want a friend you need to be a friend.  In this time of great trail I honestly don't think I would be able to make it without the friends I have.  A lifetime of trying to be a friend to those around me has blessed me with friends who have been there for me.  Friends who I have reconnected with since my divorce that remembered me as a kind person who truly tried to be there for them.  They have become the very people who have been there for me at this time.  Which has also taught me what do you want to be remembered as because you never know who will be there in your moments of hardship it just may be the people from your past.  Eighth it's ok to be human and imperfect if we continue to do the best we know how. We need to learn how to love ourselves and be ok with our best. Even though I'm not 100 percent there yet I am working on this because I know it is true.  The more we forgive ourselves and love ourselves the more we will be able to do likewise towards others.  Even though the last year has been the hardest of my life I'm so grateful for the lessons I have been learning.  So grateful for a loving father in heaven who has not left my side and has carried me when I couldn't anymore.  

Nature

 I don't know about you but I love nature because you can feel the savior so close.  The worries you feel like seems to vanish for just a little bit.  You feel the love that God has for each of his creations and that includes you.  So next time you feel weighed down go on a walk because before you know it things will seem better.  

Beautiful love

 I have come to realize that our loved ones who have already left this world are still with us.  It's just different from what it used to be.  They are there as we cry, as our hearts scream from the pain of living without them.  They hold us. They comfort us.  They carry us through this life. They want us to know how much it hurts them seeing us hurt.  They are the angels God sends us as he knows that there's no one who can love us more or who can help us more.  I have had to live my life without my babies and now my family is coming to an end.  I know that no matter what we are going through God's love sends those we miss the most to us in the moments we can't go on. We are never alone in the pains of life. 

Be kind towards ourselves

 Last night I realized that I need to forgive myself for the past and not believe the lies of others.  I need to learn to love myself for the amazing person that I am.  I would challenge all to learn how to forgive themselves and love themselves.  

We need kind words

Do you remember the last time you felt like you couldn't go on? The last time you wanted to give up? What about the last time you felt like maybe it would be better if you stopped dreaming because it has and never will go anywhere? The last time you told yourself you would stop loving because its only brought pain into your life? We have or are currently felt broken inside. Some of us do better at being strong on the outside even though inside we are broken or breaking or close to breaking.  Since we don't know what we are all going through can we stop judging one another and speak kind words instead? Can we lift one another instead of breaking each other? 

I'm one of the lucky ones in this world because even though I have had plenty of people who have broken me i have also had so many who have lifted me and helped me going.  Kind words are hardly ever forgotten neither are words that bring another down. What are we going to be remembered for? Every time we open our mouths it matters and sometimes its better to not say anything if what we want to say is going to hurt another.  

Do we love the lord?

 The savior loved us so much that he lived his life to be an example for us and he died for us.  Do we love the lord for the things he has done for us? Do we live our lives in honor of the lord? Do we love ourselves because of what the savior has done in our behalf? Do we realize the importance of ourselves? Do we believe in ourselves to go after our dreams? The lord doesn't want us to hold ourselves back from what we could do in this life.  I know a good friend of mine who doesn't love himself, who believes all he is a failure. When I heard the way he feels about himself it broke my heart in half. At the same time I know that he's not the only one who doesn't see themselves clearly.  If this is you please know that the savior didn't die in your behalf so that you can feel horrible about yourself.  Learn how to forgive yourself for being human and imperfect. The savior never expected us to be perfect in this world.  He just expects us to do the best we can. Learn to give yourself the mercy that God gives to us. Stop holding yourself back and go after your dreams.  

Say the things that matter

 May we always say thank you and I love you.  You never know when it will too late to do so.

Opportunities to work and see the good with the bad

 For it must needs be, that there is an opposition in all things. If not so, my firstborn in the wilderness, righteousness could not be brought to pass, neither wickedness, neither holiness nor misery, neither good nor bad. Wherefore, all things must needs be a compound in one; wherefore, if it should be one body it must needs remain as dead, having no life neither death, nor corruption nor incorruption, happiness nor misery, neither sense nor insensibility. 2 Nephi 2:11

We would never know true happiness if we didn't at first know depression and misery.  We wouldn't know relaxion if we didn't know work. So next time when you believe its too hard just remember that good things must be coming around the corner.  

Lessons i have learned from my lives journey

 1) forgiveness is not for the other person.  Its so you can move on with your own life. 

2) there's always something to live for even when you don't think there is. 

3) a positive attitude will always make your trails easier to handle. 

4) we all have something that nobody else does.  Its up to us to find what that is. 

5) tomorrow will always be better and brighter.  So if you feel like you are drowning just keep holding on.  It will get better i promise. 

6) you never know how close you are until you give up.  So don't! 

7) impossible spells I'm possible with the lords help. 

8) serving others will always get you feeling better about yourself.  

9) miracles happen every day so just open your eyes! 

10) if you are depressed or suicidal just reach out for help.  You are not only helping yourself but your helping everyone you love and you should be proud of yourself for reaching out for help. 

Remember your worth

 God so loved us that he sent his only begotten son to suffer, bleed, and live a perfect life that we don't have to if we would turn to the savior.  God wants us to know we don't have to be perfect we just need to do the best we can.  Use the atonement in our lives to conquer the way life has been unfair and hurtful.  With the saviors help we can forgive all because he has.  We can heal from all hurt because the lord will carry us until we can walk through this life again.  We never have to be alone or strong because the savior is for us if we allow him to be.  God loves us dearly so he sent a savior to us.  But we remember that if we choose to be we can be a savior for another but are we going to choose to? Are we going to help carry another through the the times where they feel alone, suicidal,  feels worthless. Are we going to give hope in what seems like a hopeless situation? Are we going to be the change in this world? Are we going to help another see the worth they have in this world? Are we going to forgive what seems like unforgettable and unforgivable? Are we going to choose compassion when we can barely move on ourselves and we are dying inside? Are we going to serve and keep moving when we feel like giving up? If you said yes to these questions then you are a savior so help lead others to the savior by doing so you are making something of your life.  

Trust in the lord

God has perfect timing sometimes we just need some patience,  trust,  and hope that all things will work out for the good even if it's not what we are hoping for.  

Let it go

 Let it go as the song goes.  Let the anger, bitterness,  pain, sadness go and replace it with faith in God, hope for the future,  happiness that you created.  I have learned this lesson the hard way but the more I let go and give it to God the more happiness and joy I find in myself.  It doesn't mean that there aren't hard days,  days that I want to give up but every day it becomes easier and faster to bounce back. God only wants to bless us and give us the miracles that we need but we have to let go of the wheel and allow God to direct us.  As we do so we will see miracles come into our lives that we never imagined possible.  

We can change our lives

 About two days ago I decided that I needed to change my life and the only one who could was me. Even though it is hard I'm doing an hour of exercise a day. Spending time in the scriptures.  Changing my attitude about myself. Good things will come into our lives if only we change a few small things in our lives.  God loves us and to him we are enough.  So even though we should be doing better every day we should be enough for ourselves as well.  If God didn't love us so much he never would have sent his begotten son. The fact that he did tells us that he loves us so much and the two great commandments are to love God and to love our neighbors. How can we do this if we don't start with loving ourselves.  The other thing we should ask ourselves when we don't feel enough is this how we would want our own children to feel? If its not then we should change our minds about ourselves. 

Is it true?

 If someone tells you something that hurts ask yourself is this true. If it is not allow it to roll off of you. If its true or even has a truth in it change yourself to become better but still don't allow it to beat yourself about it.  God never expects us to be perfect he only wants us to do our best.